the four parts of her heart



The letters felt heavy in my sweaty palms. I read every one of them and now I wish I hadn't. In some part of my brain, the truth was something I was already aware of. I just wish I knew it earlier when you began to fall so hard, so that I could tell you this might hurt. But the truth is I didn't know then..
With every word, something closes up around me because these letters are real feelings. Someone felt these words and decided to pour them down on paper. Someone I know, got their heart broken.
 And like a movie showing a flashback, I saw you and everything there was to see without a rewind button. without end credits or a sad song. 
I regret watching you slip away when I know I should have done something.
Now, I have these letters to remind me everyday of what I didn't do. I almost feel fearful of it, like I'm holding something dangerous, something that might possibly explode. but I'm right, they are dangerous. That's the reason you gave them to me.


 "If my heart was to be pierced into four parts, only one part I would put away for the world. The other three are for you, to think of you and love you."
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